Honesty is kind of the most important thing when folk often approach you. We are all able to, basically spot people\u2019s needs before they even open their mouth. I know an addict from 500 yards away, and I can tell you what he is addicted to and roughly how long as well.<\/p>\n
You have to be true to yourself before you can help anybody else. \u00a0You have to know your weaknesses and your strengths and know how to apply them to help other people.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
I started up a kind of self-help group up in the Shetland Isles in 1992 and that morphed into a drug project up there and I was on the committee of the project up there for about 12 years or so. So I worked in or around addiction for a long time. <\/span><\/p>\n
Guilt<\/h3>\n
Addiction is blinkering other feelings\u2026 It\u2019s also the guilt and everything that you have hidden away over the years, when you are first clean it all hits you at once and you are sort of, ‘What the bloody hell\u2019s going on? \u00a0What happened to me?’<\/span><\/p>\n
Stubbornness<\/h3>\n
I got clean on my own and I wasn\u2019t in any groups or anything. I was in the jail at the time and the nurses and the social workers and the drug workers all said, ‘There isn\u2019t a chance in hell you\u2019ll ever be clean’, and I said, ‘right, I\u2019ll be off the methadone in a month and I\u2019ll be clean from then on’, and I have. \u00a0It\u2019s stubbornness with me. <\/span><\/p>\n
Readiness<\/h3>\n
I was recalled to jail because I refused to go back to the same area as my offenses were committed. And I was put in a cell with someone who was smoking heroin every night and I was off everything, and I managed to refuse and say, ‘No I\u2019m fine’, and that\u2019s when I realised, ‘Aye, I can help other people now’, you know? \u00a0I wasn\u2019t tempted.<\/p>\n
Encouragement<\/h3>\n
When I was in the jail I had two drug workers and they usually got folk to go into groups and things but I wasn\u2019t into that so I had to do it on my own. So they said if you need us ask and we will be there right away, and they were. So Audrey and Adelphine in the jail believed in me when nobody else did and before I actually believed in myself.
\n<\/span><\/p>\nThe first barrier, and the hardest one that I have overcome, is the one in your own head. \u00a0It tells you over and over again you are nothing but a useless bloody addict. And once you have managed to kick the hell out of that then you can move on.
\n<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\nIllustration of Stuart and Robert’s stories<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n Pay back<\/h3>\n
I see it as I owe society something, for over 20 years I was a heroin addict who abused every other drug available. I sold them all over the place and I was sentenced to four years in jail.\u00a0 But since I\u2019ve come out and I got sober I kind of realised I owed society, so I\u2019m repaying for all the things I\u2019ve done over the years because I used to collect drug debts and things like that, to use violence on occasions and, I\u2019m not proud of it but it happened and I\u2019m not able to change it.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s that thing with using\u2026I lost everything, my family, the works and since I headed off the methadone my mother has accepted her son again, my other family members are slowly getting round to accepting me back in again.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
I also made a promise to myself that I would try to help one person every day and if I managed that I was doing good so that\u2019s the way I look at it.<\/p>\n
Proactive<\/h3>\n
Volunteering has made me more proactive in challenging laws and rules etc. Before I would just say things and not do anything and now I\u2019m more than willing to get my hands dirty and kind of change concepts and views of addicts and addiction and the present policy of sending addicts back into their old environment is the thing I\u2019m out to challenge at the moment.<\/span><\/p>\n
Staying alive<\/h3>\n
Most of the folk I helped in the 90s are dead now through overdose or a mix of methadone and alcohol or methadone or valium. Out of the 15 of us there is only me and one other person alive still so we are in touch on Facebook and things but… the thing is trying to stay alive. <\/span><\/p>\n
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